March 1, 2010 by Sarah S.
Thanks to Facebook, every morning I’m slapped in the face with the countdown to my wedding day. No, I didn’t install some sort of “wedding app.” Rather, my sister and other people who are attending the wedding are doing that for me. Thanks guys. 🙂 So, enter Neurotic-why-am-I-still-fat-freaking-out bride.
47 days is not a long time, people. Not at all. And even though I promised and/or swore to stay away from the scale 4-eva, we all know that was a flimsy promise at best! I simply do NOT understand how, after eating like a saint for nearly two months, I have actually gained 3 lbs. This is pretty freakin’ insane, if you ask me. Before I get all ridiculous, I am first going to launch into my two-part analysis of the situation. Rational vs Irrational.
Rational Sarah says, yes you’re weighing more on the scale, but you don’t look heavier. Aside from last week and the PR debacle, you’ve been working out a lot and eating healthy and feeling great. That should count for something!
Whatever. Rational Sarah sucks and here’s the deal: I’m freaking out about this because, like every other bride on the planet, I want to be beeyootiful on my wedding day, and don’t want to worry about looking like a stuffed sausage in all of my wedding pictures. I purposely picked a completely unforgiving dress style so that I would be completely motivated to “make it happen” so to speak. I’m so scared that at my fitting on Friday I’m going to be thicker than I was when they made the original measurements in November. That would be… devastating.
In November I was still on Nutrisystem, although slowly losing steam on it, and I did lose about 8 lbs. I just hated the food. It was so processed and needed so much doctoring! And even though you’re paying for food, you still need to buy groceries to add to it, so it ends up being pretty pricey and time consuming. Not to mention the fact that when you go out to eat, all bets are off. For me, at least. When I was on NS I started craving things like whole vegetables and whole grains — that’s when I knew I needed to get off of it, because NS didn’t allow me to fulfill those cravings. How ass backwards. I felt like I was loading up my body with salt and preservatives, and it just wasn’t a healthy or maintainable style of life. That’s what lead me here, to my bloggity blog and my random vegan adventure. I’m basically following my body’s cravings. However, I’d be a bald-faced liar if I said that I didn’t also want to lose some weight. Because I really, really do.
I know that the only course of action here is to continue what I’m doing. I know the worst things for me to do is to succumb to the woeful feelings and give up, or try some faddy-type of diet that will maybe drop some quick weight and then allow me to gain it and 10 lbs more later. I really don’t want that. You might be thinking that this is one of those whiney rants without any end in sight, but… I actually have a little plan I’ve devised that I’m hoping and praying will kickstart the weightloss again, and at least have me feeling more confident about my weight in the next 47 days.
- 1 glass of red wine, per week, period.
- Watch sugar intake (though this hasn’t been a huge issue, thanks to raw cacao)
- Work out like a maniac
- 6-8 glasses of water with fresh lemon per day
In addition to that, I’ve signed up for a week’s worth of prepared raw vegan cuisine from Pure Market Express. I’ve been hearing a lot of great things about it on the blogosphere, and decided that it might be just the thing to get me through this last month. I fully recognize that it’s not a sustainable habit, because it’s fairly pricey when you include the shipping, but these are special circumstances. I’m hoping that my experiment with Pure Market will open up my mind to other raw food ideas (because I’ve been very interested in this) and will enable me to keep on target, especially when traveling and through the weekends. I’ll be in NY/CT this coming weekend and we have a trip down to Maryland as we as our wedding shower this month – so there are a lot of opportunities to fall off the wayside. Once my order arrives (Wednesday) I will, of course, dedicate a whole post to it, and will also be tracking my thoughts on it throughout the month of March.
I actually feel better having written all that out here. Phew.
On to today, which is a VERY ugly day indeed here in Boston. Cold, moist, cloudy. Zumba nearly killed me this morning, as one week of no exercise has rendered me a weak little duckling, and of course I forgot my heart rate monitor, so I’m not sure about the burn. I also finally for the first time put an avocado in my smoothie this morning. I’m so livin’ life on the edge.
The verdict? Delicious. I ended up having double the amount of Green Goddess because I had to water it all down to achieve the consistency I like, but it was really good. Frothy and light, also creamy. I couldn’t taste the avocado through my flavors of maca, cacao, and ginger (my new trinity!) Into my blender went:
- Approx 1.5 cups spinach
- 1/2 avocado
- whatever was left of my almond milk 🙂
- water + a little coconut water for thinning
- 2 tsps maca
- 1 tbsp cacao
- agave sweetener
- a few ice cubes
I process the spinach and milk first, then add the avocado, then the rest. My blender has seen better days, so I usually let it whip around for about 4-5 minutes.
Alright, I’m off to hit the books. Thank you for indulging my freak out. 🙂