April 25, 2010 by Sarah S.
How’s the married life, you ask? EXHAUSTING so far. Me and the hubs can’t seem to stay home at night. We have just been going, going, going since we got back, and it’s really gotten crazy up in here. First of all, my days have been spent glued to a book called “Beyond Freedom & Dignity,” and while it may sound interesting at first glance, that novelty wears off quickly enough when you have to write both a debate presentation AND a 10 page paper on it. I feel like my brain is turning to mush.
We’ve been doing way too much of this:
And attending plenty of events, like this:
And my goodness, I am TIRED. The hubs left this afternoon to hit up the DC area yet again, for yet another event. He’ll be gone until Thursday. SAD FACE!!! 😦 😦
But anyway, guess what? I’ve been eating like a monsterface. I have been an equal opportunity snackapalooza and after this afternoon’s offense, it is TIME to reel this bad Bride in. You know, ever since forever, I’ve restricted my eating in some way. No white bread, no pasta, no white sugar, no butter, no cream, no this, no that, blah blah, ble blue, etc. It’s like some sort of completely un-fun game that I’ve been playing for way too long. What in the world do I have to show for all of these restrictions? Well, a yo-yo type of number on the scale and the occasional binges that make me sick. My latest foray into restrictions — and the reason this blog got started — took me into an entirely new realm, where health was attempting to be the main idea. But I have to be honest here, I was on a serious wedding weight loss quest. And guess what else? I didn’t lose the weight. What I did do, was eat more healthfully than I ever have, and succeeded in feeling pretty darn good. However, ever since I said “I do” to the hubs, I also said I do to all of the food that’s been on my naughty list forEVER.
Say hello to french fries, nachos, pasta in cream sauce, Burger King (yes, I said), pastries,soda, booze up the wazoo, etc etc. Just an all-out mess. We’ve been going to a lot of black-tie affairs, and when they pass the bread basket, I cheerfully grab a couple of rolls and slather them in butter while my tightly-laced female dinner companions stare in horror. WHATEVER. Goodness. I enjoyed that gosh darn bread.
But today, I went to WFs after the hubs left in search of goodies, and came back home with this little monster and his buddies:
Let me explain: “An extraordinary, crisp continental confection with rich smooth milk chocolate melted between two feather-light toffee wafers.” Yes. Indeed. Those little bastards are currently dead-weight in my tummy and shooting spikes of sugar into my blood and destining me for a huge headache in a little while. I feel HORRIBLE. I ate MANY of them. And now, my friends, I have finally hit my junk food wall.
Luckily, I know exactly what needs to be done to get my tummy back to feeling okay: Green Goddesses ALL THE WAY. And since the hubs is gone until Thursday, I don’t need to worry about dinner for a few nights. This will give me a good chance to reintroduce my body to … vegetables. It’s gonna be a shocka-roo. But I’m so ready for it.
I need all the energy I can get for these next few weeks, and as delicious as cookies and grilled cheeses are, they do not provide me with any kind of good energy. They just make me sleepy. So tomorrow morning, I’m getting this Bridal Booty back into shape. But a few things are very different than they were before April 17th.
- I don’t feel frantic about losing weight
- I don’t feel the need to eat only vegan, or any other restricted way of eating
- I’m focused on FEELING good
- I’m not going to force myself into anything
There’s no due date on losing weight now, and that’s a good thing. I’ve never been able to lose weight on a time schedule before, so it shouldn’t have been a huge shock that I didn’t do it for the wedding. However, I do want to get myself into great shape now more than ever… especially since the hubs and I have been baby-talking a lot. This bod needs to be in prime condition!
The biggest challenge for me is times of stress. I don’t think I’ve ever had this amount of stress on me in my life, so it’s definitely a learning experience. I have the tendency to overeat when I get overwhelmed, and to “allow” myself certain things that aren’t good for me to compensate for how stressy or unhappy I feel. Badness.
So, time to kick it back into gear. Did I tell you some wonderful person got me us a VITA MIX? Indeed. Indeed. So I’d love to get your favorite raw soup type of recipes and of course smoothie recipes, because I now have mad blending capabilities.
Anyhow, I’m back to the books and to digesting my cookies. I hope you all had a wonderful weekend, and here’s to a happy, healthy, and energetic Monday to follow!